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[20 Feb 2005|08:21pm] |
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good weekend. it wasn't the four-day monster that all the schoolkids are getting, but it's quality, not quantity.
i spent yesterday with a bunch of my springfield people. we went to see constantine, and i swear i creamed myself like eight times before it was over. ohmyjesus.
then we went back to andy's and did random things. went to the mudhouse and had pizza delivered. (anthony and i went back later to get drinks again before they closed, and one of the guys told us we shouldn't order pizza there anymore.) then we went to the show at the rockwell. two of the bands were really great. it was only the third show for one of them.
anthony and i left early for drinks, then went back to his car and just talked for a while. he played this great song for me. it was about suicide, but very inspiring. i need to go find it.
can't can't can't wait to get my car.
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[08 Feb 2005|10:46pm] |
i went and got me one-uh them new-fangled xanga thingers that all the cool kids are talkin' 'bout.
look me up. i'm fleshmachine.
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| moonlighting as something great |
[29 Jan 2005|09:32pm] |
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yesterday, after work, i went to see anthony. it seems like weeks ago now. we went the mudhouse at around 6 (i almost killed us with my driving) and stayed, talking, until they closed at midnight. i haven't felt that nice for that long in a while. we met a dysfunctional girl named becca. we talked to her for an hour or so before she finally let her friends drag her off. she was captivated by anthony. she was so smart and shy and beautiful and desperate...it hurt somehow. we watched a nail-biter of a skip-bo game right before the place closed. i still don't really know how to play.
anthony and i moved on to lighter things after we drove back to his place. we spent the next ten hours playing ut2k3, dawn of war, and tron 2.0.
i'm happy but disoriented.
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[27 Jan 2005|07:44pm] |
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today was nice. i don't really know why. i went to wal-mart after work and bought some things. my mom called and gave me a list of stuff she needed. i bought some new pens to replace the one i lost in d.c. i need to buy those particular pens in bulk in case they ever stop making them.
think i'm going to drury in the fall. i got word today that i was accepted. it made me disproportionately happy. whatever. it's college. i need to get some money to give these college people, though. maybe they'll give themselves some.
staying with anthony tomorrow night, i hope. his procrastination reminds me of myself, and i like it.
winter always changes me and i always come out the other side as someone that i like a little more. it's started. it's the only thing i honestly like about this season.
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| i'm not gonna drink your bullshit milkshake. |
[20 Jan 2005|08:16pm] |
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okay, so, when opera crashes while you're writing a lj entry, this is what you do.
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.......hey, look, fried chicken!
(the end.)
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[16 Jan 2005|12:43am] |
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sick. fuck. winter.
babysat tonight.
springfield catholic's LPA was apparently fun. good to hear.
drank coffee tonight for no reason. like...three cups. caffeine doesn't do anything to me. upsetting.
talked to mallory today. that was nice. she seemed happy, which was doubly nice. i'd just finished writing her letter a bit before, which was odd. her parents still suck, but i think i may go over there next next weekend.
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| your mom is indie. |
[10 Jan 2005|09:23pm] |
 | You scored as Indie. Indie.
Indie | | 75% | Emo & More | | 46% | Indie Rock | | 42% | Ska | | 38% | Classic Rock. | | 38% | Hardcore | | 33% | Country | | 25% | Britpop | | 25% | Punk and Pop Punk. | | 21% | Industrial | | 17% | Hip Hop and Rap | | 0% | Mainstream | | 0% | </td>
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| 'cause my heart's still beating |
[10 Jan 2005|05:35pm] |
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saturday was my one month anniversary with maggie. one month since we got back together. for the occasion, she gave me some much needed and bitter wisdom. i gave her every ounce of trust i could muster, but she gave it back.
today, i didn't exist. alive and breathing, but not really there.
i sent you something. i won't have much to say to you until you've read it.
this is me inventing new and different ways to break my heart.
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| pluck all your silly strings |
[04 Jan 2005|10:49pm] |
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i spent saturday with mags. it was my birthdayanniversarychristmas. there was a coffeehouse and a beagle and a dressing room for two. she gave me things (neutral milk hotel!) and stole my shoes. but i ate her brownie, so we're even.
today was like yesterday. tonight was a lot like yesternight.
dropped by derek's earlier and got my scanner software back. he's swimming in electronics. people keep giving him stuff. his video card is worth more than my entire computer. he has a mixer and piles of cables he found in the tv productions room at school. nobody has noticed their disappearance.
i caught you a delicious bass.
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| crustacean is a verb. |
[10 Dec 2004|09:56pm] |
i'm taking my ACT for the second and last time tomorrow morning. it will play a large role in determining how much my colleges care whether or not i attend them. tomorrow night i plan to celebrate my ownage of the ACT by going with various personages to the GWAR show in springfield. if you know of GWAR, you'd better be there. and bring your mouthguard.
also. i finally called katy this week. we're gonna meet up and do something or other on wednesday. she doesn't have a job, and doesn't want one. she's living off of graduation money. when i grow up, i want to be katy.
i got a thing from the art & design school at smsu this week. it's actually rather impressive-looking (read: pretty). maybe i'm just easily impressed. if i end up going there, i might not be so bad off after all. it's still at the bottom of my list, however. missouri < iceland
i broke up with maggie. then i unbroke up with maggie. then i ate a sandwich. which is to say she broke up/unbroke up with me. my role was relatively small. relationships belong on tv, not in real life. i blame mr. bush.
alright. time for bed. pointless, outdated, and inaccurate standardized testing awaits. hi-ho, silver!
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| i'm just a huge manatee |
[04 Nov 2004|08:04pm] |
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winter is one of those things i always hope won't ever happen again. another year; another disappointment. i don't understand why, in missouri, winter starts in october and ends in march.
so my insurance rate has finally been adjusted to account for my wreck back in april. it doubled. hooray for not being able to afford insurance on a decent car even if i had one. that brings a twinkle to my eye.
if ever you're feeling down, and the world seems to be out to get you, there is a simple solution. simply find 10-20 friends and/or strangers, a large, dark building, and play sardines. it's cheaper than uppers, and there's no risk of heart disease or impaired sexual performance.
so, w. is still president. at least he actually won the election this time. well done, george. now, go kill some more arabs so our gas prices will quit going up. then i'll really be impressed.
i'm sorry you're sick...get lots of rest, plenty of TV, and drink lots of blood. and by blood i mean fluids. i mean...er, what?
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| (in a 72-hour capsule) |
[25 Aug 2004|06:32pm] |
and it's almost four months...
i have to thank you for giving me atlas shrugged. it probably would've been a while before i got around to reading it, otherwise.
it's strange how, in the days between,
the things i need can become so focused when everything seems so ugly.
it's odd how you are all of them.
i wonder if they're something you became...
or something you always were.
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| // reaffirm. |
[20 Aug 2004|07:57pm] |
everybody's gone back to school...that's terrible. the summer was pretty great, though, and it doesn't seem wasted, but well-spent, which is nice.
i was able to spend a lot of time with people before everyone's schedule's became filled with things. i miss them anyway, though.
i finally saw punch-drunk love last night. it's a movie that makes me wonder what other people thought of it. i loved it.
my message for the day: everybody, go read some poetry. you'll be glad you did.
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| like a question: unposed |
[12 Aug 2004|10:01pm] |
so...today was my first full day as a vegetarian. my last meat-containing meal consisted of a box of chicken teriyaki that i shared with anthony late last night in front of his computer. i spent yesterday with him doing random things and playing computer games on systems that don't suck, which is a completely new experience for me. later, we picked up maggie and went to the mall. (i like red dresses.)
i saw destiny today, at work. i hadn't seen her since she quit. i'd heard she'd become some kind of weird pill-popping hermit, but i guess it was just a phase. she seemed unusually non-out-to-lunch, which was nice.
attempting to go see some bands tomorrow night in springfield. i ended up not going to the finger eleven show because i honestly didn't feel like it that night.
umm...
...the end.
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| a word from outer space. |
[02 Aug 2004|05:19pm] |
i've been to some crazy places and done some crazy things since i've posted here. my ongoing hiatus from the digital world is thus far both good and bad. it's harder to keep in touch with the people that matter, but i've found that the ones that are able have found ways to get ahold of me.
anyway...i'm at the library. i'm off work today, which is supercool. i'm off tomorrow, too, which is that x2. i should probably be looking for a new job, but instead i'm going to go babysit. that's almost as important to my future.
the andy called me earlier whilst i was attempting to nap, and told me of a thinger tomorrow eve at his humble abode. i think i'll take him up on the offer, but i'll have to bid them farewell around midnight, since i work wednesday. friggin' andy and his bad timing. (i'm just kidding andy.)
i wanna attempt to go to the finger eleven/strata/other bands concert at the rockwell this month, but i seem to have forgotten exactly when it is. ah well. anybody who reads this should consider it an open invitation to go along if i get to go. just consider that i do not own a van, but a sub-par sedan, so if you need a ride, don't plan on bitching about leg room. that is all.
(p.s., derek tiller is a god. the end. again.)
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don't speak, just click.
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| recycled air |
[12 Jun 2004|10:30pm] |
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The Postal Service - District Sleeps Alone Tonight |
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i don't know what happened to all of my time...
it's one of those things you only value when you're wondering where it went.
remind me again what the whole point is;
i seem to have forgotten?
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| warning. |
[11 Jun 2004|06:26pm] |
THIS WAY UP
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